Which way do i go?

Pain i swallow i cannot keep it down
Hate i swallow i cannot keep it down

Down

You i hate you i cannot keep you down
You i'll rape you i cannot keep it down

Down

You before me
I can't take any more
Of what you have to offer
My ears are sore
Leave my feelings
In a heap by the door
Can't go up any further
Come crashing back down